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Friday, February 16, 2007

*sigh*

I'm in a writing rut. I don't think I can call it writer's block because I've got ideas and I know what I need to do, I just don't feel like doing it. Kinda like the laundry and the dishes. And I don't want writing to be chore that I detest. It has always been my sanctuary, even if it hurt emotionally while I was doing it.

Maybe it's cabin fever or maybe it's the anniversary of a loved one's untimely death that's got me down. I don't know.

I don't want to read, I don't want to write, I don't want to do school with Zane. I don't want to clean or cook, I don't want to go anywhere, I don't want to watch TV or go to the movies, I abhor the phone lately.

Now sleep--sleep sounds good. But then I have the nightmares, so I can't do that either.

Any suggestions?

7 comments:

Melissa Marsh said...

I've felt the same way lots of times and I'm having a hard time getting into my novel lately, too.

It sounds like you might be a bit depressed. I pray you'll find some relief.

Heather said...

Books. That's what I do. Cuz I love em. And I can be someone else. And it's educational.

Michelle Pendergrass said...

Melissa, I probably a bit on the depressed side. Maybe I'll scrapbook or draw or something really creative like that. Those things actually sound delightful.

H--I guess books would be fine if I wanted to read, but I just don't even want to read.

Shelley said...

Hi Michelle. First time here but I'll be back again. Sounds to me like you might be going through some depression. I hope you get through it quickly, as it is no fun when dealing with it. I know exactly what that is like, as I've suffered through depression myself. Sometimes I have to just make myself do the things I don't feel like doing - but that doesn't always work. Also, doing something for someone else helps because it gets you out of your mind...in other words, your attention is focused on the other person (and what you are doing for him/her) and off your situation. Hope it passes quickly for you.

Chanda said...

You can always watch a good movie--sometimes that will get you writing again, too. I watched a great one called {Proof}tonight, if you want a suggestion. Or a musical--those are really cheery:)

Dan Keohane said...

Around this time last year, I was feeling pretty down, didn't want to write, but also knew that when i don't write, I get more depressed. So at night, instead of reading in bed, I opened the laptop and started tapping the keys - not to be creative, but to vent. In a way, I set out to write crap, just to move my fingers and allow myself to release some thoughts. The story - and unlike other times I did this and ended up with nothing but I *did* feel a better - that eventually got finished over time, is a dark, moody piece (I tell people i wrote it during my 'blue peiod') - yes, it actually became a workable story. But that wasn't the point. The point was to write nothing, no intention other than to release some pent up emoitons using words that might not even form a coherent sentence. For writers, it's the best medicine. Writing, even if the audience is only one (or two).

Eowyn said...

Just cling to God's truth, honey. He is with you, His rod and His staff shall comfort you. He is sovereign and has a plan to bring good out of all of this. You WILL get through this bad time, but it hurts so much while it's going on. I'm so sorry for your pain.

Actually, my blog is my place where I try to circumspectly work through my emotional pain. My pain comes from a battle that's been going on for years in the life of my oldest daughter and the sadness in me is like a very deep bruise. It's always there. But I do trust God and I keep hoping I'll find a way to live victoriously, trusing Him enough to have His joy even though the battle may not be over.

I'm glad you had the courage to share your pain here, and will pray for God's healing for you.